In The End, Close Is All There Is

It never occurred to me that what I am doing right now, its practically the future of what CF is. Not to sound dramatic or "I'm sooo important" or what, but yea. I need to look beyond the pesky little things that I, in my nature, blow out of proportion and learn to look at the bigger picture. I remember telling my seniors how "I hope one day when I become a senior myself, I want to be a blessing to my juniors just like how they have been a blessing to me".  Hello, does that ring a bell.? You have the farewell card on your desk to serve as a good reminder for starters. 

Yes, it really is depending on how I choose to look at things now. If I choose to look at it negatively, I won't even bother to keep whatever traditions that we have alive and I can easily and selfishly be throwing away the things that those before me worked so hard for. 

OR

Of course it is easier said than done, but I can choose to overlook it. Those before me, they went through what I am going through, maybe even worse. But hey, they carried on the legacy. 

My choice - the latter.

#Carrie Underwood - You Won't Find This

I See It Now

*When the darkness closes in Lord, still I will say, blessed be your name*

Its comforting to know that in times of crisis, you trust the Lord even more and you sing your heart out because you know things will be well in His time. The best way that practice has ended thus far :-)

First real post in a while. After one slap of reality in the face almost a month back when all of us were told that ROC2 will be extended to January, I took the second one surprisingly well. I somehow could only see great things to happen from this. ROC2 will no matter what, come to all of you live on the 3rd of January 2011 if you're wondering.

Personally, I feel "big" and "epic" news like this which we do not expect to hear (especially when you are 2 weeks or so away from the big day) makes me trust God even more. I don't know, maybe its because there really is no other option but to trust that He will open doors for us. Its sad to say that I need huge slaps to really know He's there and to put all trust in Him.

I am thankful that I kinda took the news well. I even feel positive bout it. I looked at this as a time for me and also all the members of production of ROC2 to really unite and know and believe that we are in this together. IN THIS TOGETHER.!!! It is also an opportunity that I believe God has given me to encourage the others who are in this as well. Encouraging others can also make you feel good. Before this I was all like "Come la, encourage me la. Why wanna make me feel so bad, its not that hard to say something nice to me..". Yea, I was like that desperate and selfish. But now, I want to make others feel good, even if I might feel like crap at times. 

The big day is now a mere two weeks away, and with news like this I really feel so motivated to make this event great. I couldn't see the light at the end of tunnel before this and pretty much up until lately, but now with such a huge barrier right in front of us, I can see the light burning and shining brightly instead. Therefore to my brothers and sisters who are doing this together, lets ask God to help us see that this is a blessing in disguise and know that He already has a venue for us just waiting to be revealed. 


And after reading this (which totally resembled the situation that we're in), it is really true that our plan B is God's plan A. We struggle to accept all these changes but God is always greater than our problems and he sees the entire picture from the day we started. 

Lets be positive and keep the optimism up :-)

365 Photo Diary #2

Just another picture heavy post...

Bid farewell to November 2011 and welcoming the final month of 2011 with open hearts

November 2011's

 

25th November 2011

I had a sudden craving for fruitcakes. Found this at the nearest mini mart.

26th November 2011

I was finally able to come home after a 7 weeks absence. My friend dropped me at my aunt's place and I had this for lunch. I also got to check out the fruitcake she's making *yumss..*

27th November 2011

Meet up with two of my closest friends for frozen yogurt *yea, we have that in Kajang now*. And I received my Big Bad Wolf loot too :-)

28th November 2011

The day I didn't really look forward to. Who wants to head back to Malacca when you're having so much fun at home.?

29th November 2011

I got the wonderful opportunity to emcee for CF. *wooOtss* As usual, I stuttered and missed out a couple of announcements. Really hoping there would be a second time.

30th November 2011

So, November 2011 came to an end and we are down with our final month of 2011. To You up there, it's been a good one year :-) I will look forward to the next year You have for all of us here.

December 2011's

1st December 2011

Ate my tau foo fa by the pool. I like doing stuff like this ~ so relaxing.

2nd December 2011
On the way to a meeting, I stopped by a mart in campus and got this. How I miss the times when I was still a kid, and there will always be ready stock of stuff like these in the fridge.

3rd December 2011

I made my most unplanned trip back home. I packed my bag within half an hour I think. Really thankful that I got to come home once again and even more thankful for my friend who volunteered to send me to Central.

4th December 2011
My whole family went to McD for dinner because I needed to send an email. Came back after that with this leftover and continued studying.

5th December 2011
Last day for me in Kajang and also my brother's SPM. Woke up and everyone has left for work and school. Then I decided to cook my own lunch. Oh how I miss cooking now...

6th December 2011
Back in Malacca once again. My char siew bun from home and a cup of Milo for my tea break. I finally own a mug after spending a semester plus drinking and eating from a multipurpose metal container >.<

7th December 2011
Random picture of my nails. I thought I'd better take a picture of it before it starts chipping. Note to self, stick to one colour only next time.


After 13 photos, I come to the end of my post. Till the next update, have a blessed weekend peeps:-)

Breaking Rules

Is it really that horrible that you do something that someone in authority told you not to.? Like when you are young and you've eaten too much candy for the day, and your parents said "No more candies for a week.!!". You try to stay away from it as long as you can, but by the 3rd day you snuck out and got yourself some treats. Usually, when one breaks rules, one gets punishment. I get it, that's how things work. That is possible when you are still 10 or something. Not when you are a year short of being 20.

So yes, I broke some rules and it became public together with the evidence to show that yes, I broke those rules... In fact, I was the one who made it public, because I saw it as harmless. Forgive me if it was offensive, I'm just being very honest.

All in all, I just wanna declare

.

.

.

I am rebellious and I know it.!!

I Never Knew That

I was told and that's how I found out...

I'm not a risk-taker,

I play it quite safe,

It's an awww instead of wow.!

I just look....n i c e.

Well, good to know. Glad to know I didn't look bad =) 

Thanks anyways.

Just a random discovery, nothing to worry this little mind of mine...

Frozen Is An Exageration

As you can already guess, I managed to find some time and come home after 7 weeks of being in total "exile" in Malacca. I was initially going to take a cab and go to Malacca Central and take a bus to KL from there. Then, I found out that a friend was also going back to KL. The cab and bus plan got replaced. I followed my friend, saved up to 20 bucks for transportation and I reached home safely at the doorstep of my aunt's place. My aunt's place looks so ready for Christmas, her decorations are up, the tree is up and most importantly, she is already making her fruitcake =) Trust me, I was like a total tourist when I was there, taking pictures of almost everything...

The tree is up already and my aunt's family went all out with the ornaments this year.

Personal favourites :-)

She said take more, and I did.

And most importantly...

*drum-rolls..*

Fruitcakes. Made with so much love...*yums*

My dessert dates and greatest friends a girl can ask for. Went for my first ever trip to a frozen yogurt outlet. Its really not frozen to me, just cold enough to solidify it a bit and make it not runny.  Kajang seems so cool now with the opening of Tutti Frutti and Subway. What's next, Wendy's.? =P

Anyways, that's it for now. Gotta go and try my best to prepare and study for my Finance paper =.=

365 Photo Diary #1

Photo diary is just a nicer way of saying picture spam. Yes, this post is gonna be all about pictures. Picking things up from where I left off.

19th November 2011

Another day of ROC practice. Don't know what else to snap so I played it safe by taking a picture of my Chucks. Then I made it black and white to follow a theme that I saw in the Excel spreadsheet that I downloaded from the Internet, to assist and give me an idea on days when I am blank.

20th November 2011

What I wore for church. The best time to put on your best clothes and look your best is the best day of the week, a Sunday. My top is actually a skirt. On a personal note, I thank God for what happened later that day. Though I cannot see how it will all look like at the end, I am hopeful and geared up for His plans.

21st November 2011

The changes that is obvious after that *points to the picture above*. What one thing like that can do, am thankful nevertheless. This is really cheap.! Only RM2.30 =) There is even pork in it.!! I knew this would be my picture of the day the moment I took it.

22nd November 2011

Imitating one of Esther's pictures. I am also having those days where I have nothing up and I don't know what to capture. Hence, the picture of the sky is my safest and last resort. The clouds look so fluffy :-P

23rd November 2011

Missed a couple of steps, tried and failed to figure out what was wrong and I was completely lost for the remaining of the class. It was like the class was in a completely different language whose my understanding for it is little to none. My brain was fried >.<

24th November 2011

Inspired by this. Mine is nothing compared to the original one. I tried looking for a pack of Smarties for a few days and all attempts failed. I decided to just use Skittles instead. Planning to attempt this again soon and with Smarties the next time.

Till the next 365 update...

Imaginary Stage, Spotlights and Curtains

Technically, ROC2 : Dear David is coming to all you all live on stage today. At least before it got extended though. Its both strange and exciting to know that at this very moment, me and the rest of the cast and crew of ROC2 might be singing, acting, dancing, running for props transition, the band doing their thing, the back up singers singing their hearts out and so much more. It is gonna be nerve wrecking and chaotic but it will all be worth it as we do all these, endured all the grueling practices for God and it pleases Him.


That makes yesterday's full dress rehearsal the "final" one. For me, it is the most impactful one by far. We sat in a circle and had a sharing session. Directors affirmed us that they will be listening as your friends, your brothers and sisters. My heart was beating so fast - "should I share or shouldn't I.??!". Sharings like these are supposed to be encouraging, to bring each other up and I know for a fact, that what I want to say is nowhere close to that. In the end, though it took a whole lot of courage, I raised my hand. I decided to just make all my anger, frustrations, dissapoinments, things that I only talk to a few friends of mine behind closed doors and all my beh song-ness public. Truthfully, I don't think there is any positive elements in what I shared. Its all about how angry I am, how I hated being in this campus in general, how unenthusiastic I am to come for practices, how I wish I am actually doing Agape rather than ROC and how I am like in a different frequency with the people here bla bla bla and a whole lot of complains and ranting. In other words, it was a public outburst that was so not and far from encouraging. But I think letting it out did help me for the rehearsal later. I didn't get neither good nor bad feedback from the directors but I felt I did a little better XP hahaha...And not forgetting those who came and talk to me after that, I really appreciate it, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.


I really thank God for his timing last week, seeing how flawless his timing is, with CG outing and watching aCt3. These two events were the turning points for me. I shared a little (just a fraction) of what I shared on full rehearsal during CG and watching aCt3 kinda fired me up to continue and press on with ROC no matter how hard it is. To see the satisfaction on the faces of seniors that I don't even know, was so encouraging and in my heart I was like "Yes.!! God sees all my hard work and He will get me through this and not abandon me and I cannot wait to feel the satisfaction when all these are done.!!". All that I can do now is to let it go and to just to trust Him.


With this being said, I end with something that I find encouraging :-)

Psalm 13:5 - But I trust in your unfailing love, and my heart rejoices in your salvation.

Image Of A Family

Truth is,I wrote this post few days ago and I was just waiting for the right time to post it. You'll get a better understanding after you scroll down.


I don't wanna spam my own blog with my 365 pictures. So, I guess the better solution would be to just share my latest picture at the time of a particular post. Therefore, my latest one is this. I'm currently on my ninth day :-)

I was trying to redo my first picture. Sadly, I couldn't. I had to "expose" this myself and the outcome is nowhere close to the first. What a whack of a colour combination right.? If there is red in this ensemble, it would have been a Malaysian flag =.=


Now, for something more related to the title above. The title was taken from a friend of mine's Facebook status :-P

I know what my image of a family is. No words can even come close to describing it, I just know it when I feel it. Still on the search for it, finding a place in it if there is already one here. People don't just merely exist. To look at it in a more selfish, self-centered way ~ I don't just merely exist here. I know I am and can be a great addition. That is going to take time and until that day comes, please bear with me as I continue bear with all of you. I know I can be quite a pain at times. Together we are one.! 


With this week's CG outing, I feel more positive bout spending the next 3 years here and the people here being my new family, and not just my temporary family. So thankful that I went for this one. Mainly cause I have decided to try and not go for CG outings this semester as an attempt to catch up with my studies.

Don't take it personally yea, I didn't set out to offend anyone therefore really sorry if I did. It's my personal opinion and it seemed harmless to me. No offense intended.


Till I write again, have a great weekend :-)

Stand On My Shoulders and Call Yourselves Tall

*points up*

My favourite line from The Social Network, its so in-your-face.!

Been singing and doing over-the-top versions of Adele's Someone Like You for the past few days now. I also finally watched the mash-up done on Glee using this song and another one of Adele's - Rumour Has It. Two semesters ago, when I was still an Alpha, I was listening to Rolling in The Deep non-stop and I found the MV to the song was so cool (glasses of water across the floor of the room, dancing in the room filled with "dust" :-P). 

Nothing much has really happened since my previous post, but I must say I had an amazing time in church last Sunday. Service that week was unique, which I guess made it more eye-opening. Check out Madd Messenger :-) 

365 is still going well. I'm on my fifth day now and I really look forward to the 360 days that is left. Here are some pictures, continuing from where I left off in the previous post.

The moon at 3am. A friend buzzed me on MSN, telling me to go check out the moon. I did and I spent some time on my beloved balcony taking pictures of it.

Psalm 118:8 - It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in man.

One of the two paintings by the guest preachers that day.

Class ended 20 minutes earlier and my stomach was growling. I dragged one of my course mates with me and had this. Quick, yummy and cheap(RM2.80 only.!) ~ what is there to complain.

.: 360 days :.

Making It Count

So, it was the 11th of November 2011 (11.11.11) yesterday and everyone was making a big fuss about it here, posts on Facebook saying how we should make it count. I guess the only way that I made it count was embarking on the 365 Project. Did I make it count enough to you.? I have the next 364 days to remind myself of this rather hype up, pretty looking date. *beat that*


It was a normal if not an uneventful day for me. I mean, I did what I usually do on a Friday. I put the same amount of thought into what I would wear for the day just like any other normal day, I went for my prayer meeting and committee meeting after, came home after everything in campus is settled, lazed around in the room. Long story short, it was unproductive.


Without further a due, I present to you my-currently-most-overused-picture *points up*  My first picture for 365 Project.

I really love how it came out, so over exposed yet so lovely that I couldn't even bring my itchy hands to tweak any of its colour and tone. Just cropped it a little and added that text.


Anyways, I just saw a homemade video of my friend that my friend told me about. I would share it but its set to private. My 2 cents on the video ~ This is the epitome of FUN.!


Till I write in next time, take care and have a wonderful weekend :-)

Things I Miss #1

Memory is the diary that we all carry about with us 

- The Importance of Being Earnest by Oscar Wilde

 For some, you might be able to recognize what that is. Things we did for fun then. For those who don't, you weren't there yet and I'm sorry you couldn't see that side of me. Saw something that reminded me how fun those times were. Looking forward to the time where we can do this again ~ for fun...

Makan-ing in Kajang

It's almost a month now since I last went home and I'm really starting to miss those things that I nom on when I am home. I started searching through my pictures library and I found pictures of those things that I will eat whenever I am at home *drools...* I have pictures of all the 3 main meals in fact :-P 

Being the proud small town girl that I am, this can indirectly act as a guide of "what and where to eat when you're in Kajang". You eat what the locals eat right.? Ahahaha... I wanna go back so badly, I cannot wait to taste all these glorious food again. No offense to Malaccan food, but Kajang has some other pretty decent food apart from the over-hyped satay. I am not choosy when it comes to food, so decent makes the cut in my book.

Feast your eyes people.!!! And prepare to d r o o l. . . . 

Breakfast under the flyover bridge into town. Nothing special and different, but I always somehow find their roti canai more crispy and their telur goreng more fragrant.

Then for lunch, my all time favourite char siew and siew yok noodles in a kopitiam. Its cheap, quick and satisfying ~ what is there to not love. Don't know the shop's name, but I know exactly where it is. I will gladly bring you there, well you will have to drive though =.= 

And lastly dinner...

Stir fry bitter gourd with pork slices. This changed my mind completely about bitter gourds. Who knew that bitter gourds can actually taste so nice...

This is not curry fish head. Its curry stingrays. *yum yum...*

Order these two dishes and you will be more than content with your dinner. 

The restaurant is located along Jalan Reko and again I don't know the name of this place. My family just calls this place "the Temple" *where wanna eat tonight.?..erm temple la...* cause its located beside a temple.

Whheee~~~ I guess I just did my first "food post". My parents and relatives never got why I take pictures of the food I eat. Its always whenever a dish is placed on a table, I have to be extra loud and clear and nicely tell them to "wait yea, I want a picture of this". Or else, everyone would be aiming for the food already. 

You can expect more of these but then again, I always eat the same few things whenever I am home. Oh wells, as long as the stomach is happy =)

I Really Wanna Go Home 

and

 Eat All These.!!!

Little Side Project...

Went for supper after ROC practice, mainly because tosai telur bawang was calling me and not because I was hungry. Anyways, so during supper, a friend asked me something bout my camera. You see, before this whenever I whip out my camera and start taking candids, people will just randomly say to me "Weyh, you like taking pictures one hor, and your camera is always with you..". My reply will usually go something like "Err yea la...oh and because I always carry a camera in my bag everywhere I go mah..". I've never called myself a photographer. I don't know if I'm any good, I just know I like taking pictures, capturing things the way I see it and not forgetting the joy and excitement in seeing how a picture turns out. 


Its decided, I am doing the 365 Project.!!! wooOttssss :-)Its strange to see how I finally came to my decision. I've always wanted to do the 365 Project and I've been like saving it for the best time to start. Earlier today, I saw one of my Facebook friend updated her 365 album which I didn't even know existed. This was then followed by me, revisiting my A Picture A Day ~ September 2011 album. Then 365 kept lingering in my mind for the remaining of the day. Therefore, when another one of my friends asked me over supper if I was still doing my A Picture A Day, I told her it has ended but I will most likely be doing a 365 next year. When I came back, I thought "Why wait.? Why not start sooner.?". I got on MSN and buzzed a dear friend of mine. My friend decided to also join this project and do it together with me :-)  


I'm hoping that this year-long project will keep me sane and happy like how the one month one did. It taught me to see smaller things (which is still a work in progress) and I felt more optimistic bout the day that God has for me. I wasn't feeling all that positive prior to A Picture A Day, and when I did that project, it was probably a desperate attempt to just get a fraction of my positive-ness back. Things started to get a bit better as I have something to do and look forward to each day. I also get to have some Photoshop fun along the way...

To cut to the chase, first picture will be up on 11th November 2011 (11-11-11, geddit.?? ahahaha...) 

Never Be Anything But Loud

Each of One Tree Hill's episode was named after a song. When I knew that, I thought it was something really cool. To date, I've only named ONE of my posts after a line in a song that I was listening to while writing the post. This post isn't named after a song, it was a line that caught my attention the most while writing this. 

Why anything but loud.? Probably that pretty much explains who and how I am. Mostly in everything that I do, the way I think, the things I find interesting, the way I dress, the way I carry myself ~  I try to do it differently, not in an attention seeking kinda way, more like a "different approach". But at the same time, I have no problem swaying in the background as well. Of course, not everything is like out there for everyone to see and hear. Some just stays with me. If all goes out, if only I was ever that outspoken, I would be offending people everywhere I go, picking fights with everyone that crosses me =.=

On a more lighthearted note, I received something in the mail today =) 

I think you can tell what it is, but definitely not exactly what right.? 

And I gave myself a treat by having some Photoshop fun. Nothing very experimental, just something I do for fun :-) Yes, this is what I call fun...

                     

Red Woolly Jacket

As some of you might know, I am a big fan of the colour red. Recently, I read a post in Monochromachic where she mentioned something about Old Navy. I used to receive Old Navy clothes whenever my relatives come home from US, well at least up until I start requesting what I want >.<


Anyways, that made me curious on what their products are like now. Old Navy screams affordable in the States, and here in Malaysia, as far as I know, there is no Old Navy outlets here, only Gap ~ their sister brand. Gap also screams affordable over there, but look what happened when it hit our shores. So not affordable.!! So, I would also guess that Old Navy would be anything but affordable once it steps foot here. Back to the topic, I checked their site few days ago, and boy do they have really nice pieces and it is dirt cheap in USD. Being a sucker for jackets (in this hot weather.!!) I browsed through the women's jacket and found these two adorable little things.

Okay, so the 2nd one isn't exactly made of wool, but that makes it more Malaysian weather-friendly.

Adorable right.??!

Ramblings About Snow Pt. 1

Why doesn't it snow in Malaysia.? Yes, I am having those times where I wonder hopelessly and continue to dream that one day Malaysia will miraculously start snowing >.< The thought of putting on a beanie hat, mittens, snow boots and layering more and more is just so exciting. I am the kind that layers her clothes as if its snowing or as if we have chilly weather here to say the least. Even when the scorching hot sun is right above my head, I will still find a way to layer. I've not gone layering up to 3 pieces, but who knows right.? I might turn up to class one day looking as if there is a snow storm going on. Quite no life right.? Ahahaha =D I love my blazers and cardigans XD


Many girls in Uni, my Uni included, are the jeans + t-shirt kind. I used to be that. Those 3 for RM50 tees at Brands Outlet were what I considered the best deals available for people with a budget like mine. It still is, but their tees have become so common, the chance of running into a random stranger having the same tee as you is much higher now. Come to think of it, its really something to just wear jeans and t-shirts and be perfectly pleased. I'm really not that simple anymore I guess.

Anyways, I just want chilly weather later today. I really cannot wait to wear my new orange blazer. Ahahaha =D

* Oh and there's a "Pt. 1" to this post, as I know there will be more "I want to see snow" posts to come. I don't think I'm gonna be waking up from this "I wanna see snow" dream of mine anytime soon =P

0750 at Campus

Reached FBL at 7.50am, 10 minutes earlier than what I had planned. I don't even go for my 8am classes that early, its either I arrive on time or I will be slightly late. *elevator door opens..* There's already a very long queue there. What on earth.??!?! How can this be.??!?! Nevertheless, I went to the end of the line and queued up like everyone else wanting to add their subjects. They started giving out numbers at approximately 8.15am and by 8.40am I heard the officer said "Nombor dah habis. Datang balik esok..". W H A T. . ? !

How it looked like at 8.20am o.O

Went to see the lecturer whose subject I'm trying to add to ask for her permission and signature. She didn't want to sign my form and she told me to take this subject next semester o.O I didn't want to drag this subject till the next semester as I was trying to stick to my course structure. Anyways, I left her room without the permission and signature.

Went back to my room after that, stayed for a mere 10 minutes, then head out again to campus to return a book that I've borrowed from my lecturer since last semester. This lecturer managed to help me with my subject registration issue. A senior lecturer signed my form and told me to add this subject ASAP. At the end, I managed to add this subject and I'm still sticking to my course structure =) Whheeeee~~~~

After everything is settled and done in campus, I walked back to my place. Suddenly, I remembered that there was something in the mail for me today, that is waiting to be collected at the apartment's office. My orange blazer.!!! It was one of the few birthday gift I bought for myself during Finals last semester and after waiting for 2 weeks, its finally here =)

Mine =)

That is all I have for now. First half of the day wasn't bad at all come to think of it. God provided me a way out with my subject registration mess and also the joy of finding something in the mail. Hahaha =D Will look forward to the remaining second half of today =)

Cool People Walk Alone Too

I thank God even though today has been tiring both emotionally and physically. I put up a good face, the "professional" face during ROC practice which was close to half a day. It could have been much worse, but hey look on the bright side, at least I get to go on with my next semester according to my course structure, I can take all the subjects according to the structure, and I don't have to retake any papers =) That is something to smile about.

Being the kind of person who has this fear of seeing her own results and the habit of getting someone else be the deliverer of bad news, so I asked a couple of my friends to check my result. Then a text came..*jeng jeng jeng* *face turned black* definitely not what I wanted to see. I remember ever since starting Uni, I can say my ultimate fear is getting below a certain CGPA. Went to one corner of the room and called a friend of mine and ranted all I wanted. 

Then the hard part came ~ telling the parents...Chose another corner of the room with a window. Talked to my dad and told him that there might be a chance he has to start paying for my tuition fees. The lecture he gave was surprisingly short. In fact he told me some really encouraging stuff, hearing that I went on more bout the financial side of things instead of how I should start working harder for better grades. *Don't worry who's gonna pay your fees, that's for me to worry. You just make sure to work harder to get better results* Every kid would I guess be rejoicing when their dad mentions that. I felt even worse, more guilty in fact, started crying and he kept saying everything will be ok... All I wanted at that time was to go back to my room and be alone. But I was hungry, so no choice, have to walk into a restaurant with my eyes red and swollen >.< 

Second half of the day came which equates to more practices. Honestly, I wasn't in the mood and if I were rebellious enough, I could have just walked back without even thinking twice. Walked into the room and saw some people clearly very pleased with what they have gotten *tahan, don't cry MeiTheng* Practice didn't go so well, couldn't nail my ahem role and its so clear that scenes with my ahem role could not move in the progress chart because of me. I know I am giving my directors a hard time and making them more frustrated by not letting loose and all. I really am trying, maybe there's something seriously wrong with me.

Practiced dismissed for the day, grabbed my stuff and left immediately. Went into my room, locked doors, called my friend and cried talking to her probably even freaked her out a lil'. Didn't head out for dinner, don't know if anyone had any plans, no one called, didn't bother to call either. I like spending my nights even my days alone anyways =) Cool people walk alone too you know =P Did a little bit of laundry, watched some One Tree Hill and that's basically how today went. 

Emotionally draining enough.?? With disappointments here and there.? 

For me ~ y e s.

Something Chambray

 .: C h a m b r a y :.

Personally, I consider chambray both a colour and a type of fabric, I say its denim. After seeing chambray appearing a number of times in the blogs that I follow over a period of time, I decided maybe its time I get one of it, be it in the form of a blouse or a skirt, for myself. Sounds like what every shopaholic will tell and convince herself with when she is well aware of her unhealthy spending habits. Anyways, I am now the proud owner of a chambray skirt =) What is there not to love.? The light blue shade and the denim texture of it and how it can go with everything just like a faithful pair of jeans. I can even do the denim-over-denim thing that I've been wanting to do ever since I bought myself a denim oversized collared shirt almost a year ago. Plus it doesn't have the floral print that some deemed as too feminine. I don't know if this is currently an it-thing or what, but I am just so drawn to it. Ahahaha =D

70 bucks investment :-P

Bought mine at Cotton On(Sunway) together with two blouse and 2 charm bracelets. I spend too much at Cotton On *tsk tsk* And I shop too much whenever I am back home *tsk tsk tsk*

By the end of the week...
And yet I still complain I have nothing to wear =.=

Lastly, enjoy the remaining of your break MMU-ians...And for those who are going for ice-skating while I am here practicing for ROC, enjoy yourselves yea.!! =) There will be another time...