Hopefully This is The Last of Beta_1

Then – One Republic’s Good Life

Now – Michael Buble’s Home

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Beta year’s first trimester has come to an end now with me just sitting for my last paper for this Final barely hours ago. Was it a good semester you may ask. I would say, give and take ~ ok ny la. Nothing much to really shout about. Undeniably, it has been a semester of meeting new people, adjusting to the environment and culture here and most definitely trying to embrace what this place and the people here can offer. It has been a tiring one as well...

Truth is, I know that this could be a much longer, close to never ending post if I were to tell you how things didn’t go as planned and how things turned out differently for me here. And by didn’t go as planned and turned out differently, I meant that in a not so positive way. I wasn’t negative from the very beginning though. You have no idea how positive I was at the beginning ~ so positive that it could probably cure cancer *haha..exaggeration*  Then things started to not turn out the way I expected it to and I realized some hard truths. Truths that are though painful to accept and realize, but I’m glad I realized it sooner than later. With those revelations, I could pretty much say I started to get tired. Tired here as in lazy-to-put-in-effort-and-respond-to-things kind of tired. Call me unwilling to try and put in an effort, but that’s cause you don’t have a single clue how hard I tried at the beginning. I also have this amazing thrill like never before to want to go home all the time and the feeling of wanting to run out of here every chance I got. Anyways, if any of you are curios and wanna know what happened, come ask me and I’ll tell you. I wouldn’t mind sharing. Definitely not going to do it here.

Then, because I was embracing my new found alone time, I kept myself busy with a few stuff. And this is the short list of things that I did to practically keep me sane...

- Talked on the phone as if there was no tomorrow and as if the phone charges were free

- Started following more blogs, give and take around 6 now

- Gave blogging a try, hence the birth of this blog and

- A Picture a Day - September 2011 ~ enjoyed doing these the most

And before I cabut for my much needed and awaited semester break, here are two pictures I wanna share…

Before Beta_1 started

As of now when Beta_1 has ended

Well, the closet did expand =P

~ I can’t wait to get home.!!!

~ Can’t wait to see the hand-me-downs that I’ve gotten that is just screaming to be touched and seen

~ Can’t wait to cook a real meal for myself even if it’s just frying eggs and experiment in the kitchen

~ Can’t wait to watch TV =P

~ Can’t wait to have hot water for showers

~ Can’t wait to eat my favourite char siew noodle from my favourite kopitiam

~ Can’t wait to have the house all to myself

~ Can’t wait to sing on top of my lungs without the fear of anyone hearing and seeing me

~ Can’t wait to do so much of things.!!!

Have a good break peeps and may you be recharged for the new semester =) That is what semester breaks are for...

Reporting at 2am...

Hello there, I've decided to write a post because...well just because actually. Nah, its most probably because I've not written anything anywhere for a while now, so yes, I wanna "get in touch" with writing again ~ before it gets rusty XD


Well, Finals are almost done. I've got 2 more papers to freedom. Gonna cabut from here on the day I finish my last paper itself. And September is also coming to an end, which means my little side project (which I extremely enjoyed) "A Picture a Day ~ Sept '11" will also come to an end. By the 30th of September, there would be a total of 30 pictures in that album :-) wooOtsss.!! So planning to do this again next year :-)


Other than that, been studying for Finals and also this - been blog hopping to check out what happened during NYFW =P This is strange considering I don't even know what season it is now and I've never followed any Fashion Weeks before. All the blogs that I've bookmarked and been following didn't talk much bout the shows that went on under the tent. Instead they talk more about their blogger events held in conjunction with Fashion Week. Trust me, these things that fashion bloggers get to do and the events that they get to go to, looks so FUN and EXCITING.!! I'm not gonna use the word awesome as it is so over-used these days, people use it to describe practically everything that its losing its meaning now ~ such a sad fact...


So, I guess that is all I have for now. Hope to write in again when Beta_1 Finals are officially done and history. Nites y'all =)Have a great day ahead...

How Nice To Feel This Way...

Feeling so at home right now, not just because I am at home, but its the people here, the place here...

*oh happiness..*

So nice to have this feeling again...

To climb up the stairs of my old hostel...

To compose one text and send it to a number of people as a lunch invitation...

To sit in the library and prepare for Finals...

To eat in FCM Cafe for lunch...

And come out smelling one kind >.<

To walk on the walkways and common areas where every student walks...

To sit in FOE lecture room and be in the company of great people...

*its CF with the Cyber family all over again.!!*

To see some faces which I've not seen for a very long time...

To go to SK for supper...

Happily returning back to my books now =)

Denial...

You know you are lonely even when you are surrounded by people with the most vibrant personality and what seals the deal here is when you make more phone calls than ever, calling the same few people and ranting about the same old things.I guess the face I put on, well its just ultimately a face I put on cause I think I cannot see myself walking around with a sour face >.< And it took me this long to realize it, to realize I've not been completely settled here, to realize that I've been pretending more than I thought I was =.=

It's quite miserable considering I keep telling myself that God placed me here for a purpose and I am okay (don't know what other words can I use =.=) with being here and walking in this path He set me on. Even in the midst of all this so called misery, I still know that God is good, He wont put me through things I couldn't handle and I must trust His plans for me. Though His presence can feel very distant at times, its undeniable that He is the ultimate companion for everyone.!! =) God works in ways we can never ever imagine.

Isaiah 41: 10 - So do not fear, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

As of now, though I still remain unmoved and unaffected (okay, not on all things cause I really am looking forward to ROC) by the things that are going on here, as gempak as they are, I of course hope that things will change soon. Imagine if this goes on for the next three years.??!! Talking to Esther made me realize that I've been comparing too much, and when one starts to compare, expectations will definitely follow suit. Like come on, how many times did the-place-that-shall-not-be-named-but-everyone-knows-its-the-place-I-keep-talking-about came out from my mouth.? Not to mention all the praises that I kept attributing them with.? I need cut my new family here some slacks too. So yeah, guess I have a lot (a whole lot.!) to work on. 

Wanna Hear It Again.?

The break I so looked forward to came and went. It was great while it lasted, and now that I am back here I really feel the urge to scream into someone's face =.= Yes, I am that unstable. Consider yourself warned.

*flash back to a week ago*

My break technically started even during committee planning for next semester's CF activities cause I know within a day more I would be back home. Anyways, what happened during the planning was all committee members were told to reflect back on what we have done and how things have been for one trimester. This got me to realize that the best day I've had ever since I moved here was Inter-CF Day, hands down =) I guess those present were not surprised to hear that I mentioned that in my sharing given I go on and on about it. This then got me to wonder how long does one actually take to adjust to new surroundings, new people etc, it's been a semester already. Will there come a time where I wont get all excited as I do now to go home.? Or maybe I look forward to coming back to campus and going home equally.? All in all it was a very fruitful meeting and though I couldn't stay until it was over, I know that God has great plans for CF in the upcoming semester, just like how He did for the past semesters. Looking forward to it and I hope everyone is too. And plus ROC is happening in the next semester.!!! woooOtssss =) =) To make things even sweeter, I got my second pair of Chucks.!! I am the proud owner of two pair of Chucks now XD

My time in Kajang is then filled with tons of meet ups. Super busy with meet ups. Oh and not forgetting the times where I changed my nail colour every two days =.= I literally had an outing (or two at times) almost everyday. It's surprising that my parents are even okay with it. I first met up with the very cool Cyber people ~ Vivian, Alvin, Deric, Stephen and Philip. They were in Cyber even though its break. And being the proud Kajang girl that I am, of course I brought them to my favourite kopitiam. Then I got a chance to meet up with the wonderful Miss Kaitlin Marian, twice I might add. The first time, I was so under-dressed but still great nevertheless. The second one, I got to meet up with Kalai and Daya too. Got to see Daya's new crib. So nice to be with them, exchanging grandmother stories. Hahahaha =D Then lastly, I got to meet YenPui. I've not seen this ekor for the longest. I didn't get a chance to see her before I left for Malacca, then I also didn't get to see her during the few times I came back. So great to get to meet everyone I met. I was able to meet up with everyone I wanted to meet up with. Awesome right.?

Pictures, to assist you in getting a clearer view of the much awaited break...

Committee planning =)

2nd one.!! 2nd one.!!! *jumps in joy*

Cyber people in the house yo.!!

Pastels =)

Daya dearie with her food...

I Love You, my sampat XD
and since when you got so yeng.? tights and shorts =)

*at present time*

Back in Malacca now. Gotta start gearing up for Finals now (trying to, at least). If not I can kiss those ka-ching goodbye and be welcomed home with never ending lectures of "what went wrong.??!!" or "have you forgotten what your aim is.??!". It won't happen, it wont happen, it wont happen. I command it to not happen.!!

HAPPY STUDYING EVERYONE.!!!