le Final Sunday

What went down for this Sunday, the last Sunday of 2012

Woke up late but still made it to church =P

During service, wrote a prayer for 2013, sealed it in an envelope and it will be mailed back to me in 3 months time

Went to the court for the last day of Novice Cup 2012 ~ was finishing already when I reached

Went for late lunch at IceRoom Cafe at Laksamana ~ *recommended*

Came back and study for IT Service Management midterm -.-

Now, am I the only one barking bout it.? Would you care to show me otherwise.?

Cause if you throw crap in my face again this time, I have little close to no plans in sugar coating.

And trust me when I say I will not sugar coat.

le Final Saturday

What went down for this Saturday, the final Saturday of 2012

Knowledge Auditing and Mapping midterm ~ not.enough.time

Nap and over-napped and went late to the court for Novice 2012

At Novice Cup 2012, umpiring duties after so long ~ knees and hands were shaking, "correction" a number of times

Dinner with Alvin Lim who is in Melaka for his birthday and the weekend

Googling, reading and completing Decision Support Systems quiz due on the 31st of Dec

A fruitful day indeed.

Calling it a day for good now.

le Final Friday

What went down for this Friday, the last Friday of 2012...

Decision Support Systems midterm in lecturer's office

CF post mortem of the week

Slept for 3 hours

Revised for Knowledge Auditing & Mapping midterm for tomorrow

Dinner and was called a retarded bitch in the face

Still revising for Knowledge Auditing & Mapping -.-

That is basically how today went.

A lil mind workout here ~ How do you like walking into a room of people, they give you their Hi's, you say Hi back. You sit down and its like you're not even in the room. *wahhh I feel damn awesome bout myself lor in situations like this* Such a rare breed, close to extinction I would say...

The problem is me, always been me, always will be me. Since when can it be others.? You know they are saint like, close to perfect. Of course the problem is me la. How dare you blame this on the saints? No investigation or Q&A's needed, can straight point finger. 

How It Is

There was this incident that I had to face earlier this week. There was no avoiding it. I had a "more serious than usual" sit down session with one of the closest people I met in my varsity life. Truth is, I was quite scared for it. I didn't know how I would be able to open up my eyes and bring myself to lie to this friend's face, just to save face. I didn't know what I should prepare, as I don't even know what questions will be flung to my face. So, in I went with all the false bravado and sat down confidently to be potentially "fried". The session didn't exactly come as a surprise. I would consider myself "warned". I shall not expose what went on as both parties agreed that whatever that is said will stay in that room and only between the both of us. But I indirectly realized something and this I will let slip ~ I close so many "one eye" because you are "family". I had been that bias in my daily conduct and the pathetic part is, you continue to abuse it and I allowed myself to be abused in such a way again and again. *don't I ever learn..* I'm still letting this to sink real deep in and understand why I did that.

While I was at the "warned" stage, one friend told me this ~ It seems that you are in "tai wok" with both sides. My reply to that was, "I think I would wanna un-"tai wok" myself at that rather than at this, cause at this, whatever I do or don't do, I feel I'm in "tai wok", so yea..". Then an encounter that had I-won't-take-back-what-I-said written all over it happened. More reason to devote time and effort at that than this. 

*in my dictionary, probably dictionaries of many as well, tai-wok is the Cantonese equivalent to "deep shit" in English.

I'll Take What Is Given To Me

The 2012 version to this. No pictures though =P
The previous one, I was just sitting in the crowd, plain excited for the day. 

The current one, I'm the one that's in charge of making it happen, glory and thanks goes to Him first and foremost of course.

There was this one day trip to Cyberjaya over the weekend which I had the privilege to organize with my ex-CF. I enjoyed the day of course and now that the trip has come to an end, I can also say that I did enjoy the planning as well.

Its tough to say that you "enjoy" telling people "16 people has signed up" 2 days before the event, even more so when your expected target was 40 people and "publicity" has been on for 2 weeks. Its down right embarrassing to tell people indirectly how something you're in charge of is epic-ly failing. It was painful when some said "but your bus is for 40 people right". Truth is still truth even if its "16 people 2 days before the event". Sitting in a meeting a day(less than 24 hours before departure) before the event and hearing suggestions was ridiculous. Suggestions given weren't that ridiculous, the ridiculous was hearing all of it at that kind of time ~ when there is no more time to implement it and when it is already so late. If only all this came earlier. I was able to put up a nice presentable face still after some self psycho-ing and also some very long, tear filled, angry rambling phone calls with a friend from home. I am not afraid to admit(well here at least) this cause I was in that state. Through some last minute string pulling of certain people, the number got nicer (a 27 btw). 

I was obviously happy and thankful for this, then I had another thing to worry ~ awkward silences. Given my rep, I am not so sure if I am the person to break awkward silences. I was worried sick for this. But when all of us arrived and were put in the same room, people just naturally mingled *pheww*. Not sure if it could have been more but in my eyes, cukup la...I was really happy to meet and talk to some of the new faces from Cyber. 

I was hands off once we arrived in Cyber mainly cause the activities are taken care of by the Cyber CF. Station games were fun. Never thought of doing a human tetris for a charade-like challenge and that putting an angel hair pasta thru a "pasta with a hole" would be so tough =D The walk in the garden was an adventurous one. Me, Esther, Deric and Edward got lost. We walked till there was no more proper path to walk on. We still managed to find our way out on our own, while taking some jump shots and sightseeing at the lake. Dinner was a bit messy for me. We had to split up cause there were many options of where to eat.

Through the mini conversations I had with a few people after the trip, the location that we chose for the wrap up and sharing was surprisingly good. It was unexpected for many. We did it at one of Putrajaya's many colourful-ly lighted bridges. Many were in "those who don't take photos took out their phones to do so" awe of it. Ahahaha =D I was glad that the location turned out good considering we organizers decided on it during dinner time. I think it was this bridge that me and Vivian did a "photoshoot" XD 

In the end, I was glad that the trip turned out the way it did. It could have turned out worse or even better, but I'll take whatever that's given to me. Planning this I got to see how priorities differ among us(there is no good or bad to this). What I view as of utmost importance could just be something so small to someone else and vice versa. I saw how I cannot force someone into something. I love being able to come back and stuff like walking around FOE Foyer can already make me jump in happiness. People who has left would understand. Certain places has sentimental value and this is one of the many. *thankful* 

Please Save It

So, what does one do when numbers for something(could be your weight, height, attendance, bank account balance etc) is not at a desired state.? You have done your part and there is nothing left to do, on your part at least. You psycho, brainwash and most importantly, you beg God to help you see that the number you got is a pretty miraculous number. You ingat senang nak dapat atau sampai nombor tu.?! 

And to those who see the obvious gap, please. I saw the gap way before you did, and whats worse is that in my eyes, that huge ass gap has more behind it. For your sake and mine as well, just save it. 

*end of rambling*

Things I Miss #2

Other than being my second "Things I Miss" post, this is also the song I wanted to share with fellow CF-ers during Rhythms of My Life. But upon seeing the list of songs of those who signed up, I chickened out, deciding I better not embarrass myself and worried if this song selection would be misinterpreted.

Lyrics wise it doesn't have any significance to me, its the whole song and what a song can do that makes it matter so much. We all know how a song can miraculously bring us back to the time we first heard it or maybe when it was looping in your playlist. This was my life's "soundtrack" back when I was in my last semester of Foundation year. It was then I had the time of my life being a new believer and enjoying the ultimate student life. It is also during this time that I learnt how and why we have to run the extra mile for our family of believers. And to me, running the extra mile is one way we encourage one another in our journey with God. And every single time I listen to this song or when this song is played, not just am I reminded of the times I sing this for fun in the car, I remember the time when there was just so much "energy" to do it all. I am reminded of the kindness that people have shown me and how one simple act of kindness can go a very long way.

I am pretty sure that all of us have a song somewhere in us that reminds us of a certain time, good or bad. And this one song, could be the most random of songs. 

And that would probably be my story.

So what do I miss actually, since this is after all a "things I miss" post. Long story short,I miss the time, the whole time when this was my "soundtrack"...

Effort and A Space in Here

I saved this photo from Tumblr when I first saw it almost 2 years ago, was more into the pretty calligraphy than what the quote meant. Of course, even then when I read it, it made perfect sense just that what was written was far from my worries. I still trust that they wanna stay, and the explanation I always give myself is "people can be really unconscious of all these at times".


Undeniably I have been pretty MIA this semester and to give myself a little credit(is that even the right word.??!?!), I have been more busy than ever. Previous semester was my best so far, I was lunch planner etc, I was a social butterfly. But this semester, I just didn't have the time to text 5 - 6 names for every lunch or dinner that there is. I go out and run errands with whoever that is conveniently with me at the time things occur. With that said, my "encounters" with certain people just never happened for this semester if not less. Guess I should just force myself to find time. FIND. TIME. I know I meant every word when I let all my guard down and said I will mend broken relationships, but you also know right that these things takes two hands to clap.? Probably with this I can save myself some heartache every time I see those "oh shit, we forgot bout her" look when we run into each other. 

*end of rambling*

I heart-heart TWINS =)

Its been a long while since their show in Malaysia ended, but I'll write about it now cause God knows how much more I might procrastinate it. I'm insisting now because going for Jayesslee and seeing them perform is also a must write, must share and this are the things that has a permit to be repeated over and over again and people cannot hate you for it =P


I went to the show (duhh..) and it was great. Maybe "great" is even an understatement.
It will be one thing that I will never regret doing. You know, having to pay for the ticket with my own money and crashing at friends' place a night before the show...
Honestly, it was worth every penny.
For me, it was sheer perfection, they sound just as good live as they do on YouTube. It was an experience in a class of its own and a great blessing to sit in the audience and have the twins serenade us all away...
One thing that made me feel so blessed that night was how they publicly proclaimed their faith. When they sang Amazing Grace, I just *floatsssss*
It was indeed a blessed night for me =))


Esther, Deric and me were the typical first time concert goers, having arrived at the venue almost 6 hours before the show was scheduled to start.
But being there so early has its perks..We got to see them enter the building with our own eyes and they were only probably just 3 feet away from us.
We also got to listen to their sound check while queuing up. It was like free performance for everyone there at that time...
It was a real set back when their mini album wasn't on sale cause I would have happily grabbed one. I even came prepared with the moneyyhhhh.!!! =.=


Lets get to the fun part, PICTURES.!!! *I sized it at X-tra large =P

 The golden ticket

 Let the show begin.!

 Even Andy came on stage =P But we saw a lot of him after the show ended...

 The crowd went a lil crazy when Janice played the tambourine for Payphone

 during Amazing Grace

 Come back to Malaysia again.!!!

And thank you for the beyond wonderful night =))

And lastly, I end this post with my favourite shot of the night =))

p.s -  I wanted my post title to be "I <3 <3 TWINS.!!". But I guess Blogger can't process what <3 <3 is...*sigh*

Gamma1 So Far

Week 2 of my first semester in Gamma has officially come to an end *praise God*. Never been more busy than I could even remember. I spent more hours in campus than at home, even my roommate left me a note saying she has not seen me for the whole week. But yea, I am expecting things to "tone down" since the club and societies registration week has ended. I saw my new juniors and truthfully, it wasn't how I expected things to turn out. All my communication skills were practically thrown out the window, which concludes my theory of why my seniors couldn't really engage in a meaningful and deep conversation with me. Cause honestly, making new friends is not easy and I am a living example of that =.=


C h a o t i c. That's the only word I can think of when asked to describe how booth registrations went. There's just too many people in a too freaking small space. And there was just so much noise, every booth was trying to attract people to their booth by making noise. Over all, it was fine, for the sake of this blog and to those who actually read this piece of rambling, I renewed my membership with CF and I signed up for the Student Publication Board as well (the interview was fun, more on that later)... I did a very shameless thing during booth registration. CF has a live band at their booth and it was there I grab my chance and whacked the cajon. Of guts and a thick face #storyofmylife


Went through 2 interviews also before the week ended. One with Badminton Club for a XXXXX post, sorry still P and C at the moment and the other, which I just had like 4 hours ago, was with SPB. Both were like casual conversations, which is how I like my interviews to be and it also tends to be the way I make the atmosphere of the room to be, even if they are formal interviews. 2 interviews in a week, not bad..hahaha =D 


One concern that I do have is am I biting off more than I can chew. I am all for living varsity years to the maximum-est fullest-est but I am taking it too far.?? 


Beta's semester break was a good one, mainly because of IF Camp =)) The awesome-ness of being reunited with the family from Cyber. Even more awesome message. We always have a choice and that we can always choose love and choose to love. And to see people united, it must always start from you. Pointing fingers and saying so and so is at fault or is the problem etc isn't going to make things better. I am more thankful and forever grateful for the chance to really be crystal clear with someone that I have been really bitter at, I broke down for that. Man, I wanna go back to camp, but I know that the real test is now, outside of camp. My keep trying battery still hasn't run out and I hope I constantly recharge it and people respond to me before it does run out. Respond has been so so, but bottom line is battery still hasn't run out.!! =))


All in all, there has been ups and downs but life has been good to me *give thanks*

365 Photo Diary #7

Here's the one for MARCH 2012 =)

 1st March 2012

Gold flakes and turquoise nails.

 2nd March 2012

Newly arranged bookshelf and my modest collection of books

3rd March 2012

Loot of Beta2's semester break. 1 blouse, 1 blazer and 2 skirts =)

4th March 2012

Lunch at the usual place whenever I am home..

 5th March 2012

Breakfast for lunch...

6th March 2012

3 piece layering at Zara. Why must Zara be so out of my budget.??!?!

7th March 2012

Lunch with someone I've known since I was 7

 8th March 2012

Another Topshop window display

9th March 2012

Lunch with them at the usual spot =P

 10th March 2012

New Forever21 sneakers and Lifesavers gummy =))

11th March 2012

Bought and went missing within the same night =.=

 12th March 2012

Campus at 0715 on the first day of Beta3

 13th March 2012

First CF for Beta3 :-)

14th March 2012

Studying for supp. paper =(

 15th March 2012

Colours...

16th March 2012

Its been awhile since I last been to Jonker

 17th March 2012
New place to toss my earrings

 18th March 2012
White lace, pleather and a hand me down gold chain bracelet.

19th March 2012
Kaitlin turns 20 =))

 20th Mar 2012
CF: Be A Part, Not Apart

 21st Mar 2012
Floral Nike sneakers.!!! Too cute for words X)

 22nd Mar 2012
Pastels #1

23rd Mar 2012
Pastels #2 

 24th Mar 2012
Loot from BB1M =) God bless the Malaysian government and its leaders...

 25th Mar 2012
Accept the people that God has placed around us because they are placed by God. We don't choose, He does it for us and we obey Him.

26th Mar 2012
MMU has prom...good to know *walks off* 

 27th Mar 2012
My first ever owl ring

 28th Mar 2012
BSAD in CF =) Great experience to be PIC for this event.

29th May 2012
Tau foo fa in Batu Berendam before CF 

 30th Mar 2012
My Cotton On charity charms

31st Mar 2012
Last day of March and I spent it well with Michelle...Thanks for being in Malacca =))




Enjoys.!!! =))

Change and Everything Exciting

2 day of planning for 2012/2013 has ended. Thank God it was productive and really glad that it came to an end...
Was glad to hear some of the problems identified, not that I am glad that there is such a problem but 
more that people are aware of what might be wrong. Awareness makes us take corrective steps *yay.!!* =)


Really hope I can be a senior that is available to my juniors. I wanna spoil them as much as I could..The things that didn't work out for me, well that doesn't mean that it should also be the same situation for my future juniors.  I want a change, why not I be the agent of change right.?


On a side note, IF Camp 2012 is coming soon, actually just a day away. Super super super (x10000000) excited.!!! It can be the reminder why I wanna be the ideal senior to my juniors, though the theme for camp is "unity". 

365 Photo Diary #6

Picture heavy post coming your way...

February 2012

11th Feb 2012

I love salmon...

 12th Feb 2012

Renewal of vows..

 13th Feb 2012

Stocking up junk food for exams

14th Feb 2012

My Vampire Diaries loot courtesy of Deric Lee =P

15th Feb 2012

One more paper down...

16th Feb 2012

Yes, only one more to go =)

17th Feb 2012

Last minute BFB tips =))

18th Feb 2012

Best picture for the milestone 100th day of this project =)

My 365 partner ~ Esther :-)

19th Feb 2012

My first Chatime XD

20th Feb 2012

The 4th Betas on Ice. Looking forward to Gammas/Deltas/Epsilons on Ice now =P

21st Feb 2012

Michelle turns 20 =))

22nd Feb 2012

Pink Wednesday treat by the parents...

23rd Feb 2012

Steamed eggs with seaweed

24th Feb 2012

A day with Esther dearest while the rest are in Genting...

25th Feb 2012

Topshop at Pavillion's window display. So pretty and preppy right.?

26th Feb 2012

Visiting the brother in NS.

27th Feb 2012

Gift from Esther from Singapore =)) M for MeiTheng XD

28th Feb 2012

Finally finished reading a book that many read so long ago. 

29th Feb 2012

I miss cooking for myself by just looking at this picture >.<

Update of March's 365 coming soon =P