365 Photo Diary #6

Picture heavy post coming your way...

February 2012

11th Feb 2012

I love salmon...

 12th Feb 2012

Renewal of vows..

 13th Feb 2012

Stocking up junk food for exams

14th Feb 2012

My Vampire Diaries loot courtesy of Deric Lee =P

15th Feb 2012

One more paper down...

16th Feb 2012

Yes, only one more to go =)

17th Feb 2012

Last minute BFB tips =))

18th Feb 2012

Best picture for the milestone 100th day of this project =)

My 365 partner ~ Esther :-)

19th Feb 2012

My first Chatime XD

20th Feb 2012

The 4th Betas on Ice. Looking forward to Gammas/Deltas/Epsilons on Ice now =P

21st Feb 2012

Michelle turns 20 =))

22nd Feb 2012

Pink Wednesday treat by the parents...

23rd Feb 2012

Steamed eggs with seaweed

24th Feb 2012

A day with Esther dearest while the rest are in Genting...

25th Feb 2012

Topshop at Pavillion's window display. So pretty and preppy right.?

26th Feb 2012

Visiting the brother in NS.

27th Feb 2012

Gift from Esther from Singapore =)) M for MeiTheng XD

28th Feb 2012

Finally finished reading a book that many read so long ago. 

29th Feb 2012

I miss cooking for myself by just looking at this picture >.<

Update of March's 365 coming soon =P

5 Days of the Past 2 Weeks

It was an event that I decided to be a part of as a favour to a friend, also as an attempt to try something out of CF but I never expected to have walked away from it with so much. With.So.Much...
When E***** asked me if I could help out by taking pictures in his event for Badminton Club, I was like "You sure mou.??". Sure, I liked taking pictures and all, but this is one big major event for the club and I don't wanna be responsible if they don't have any good pictures for their event this year. Bad lighting in the hall, players quick movements, that stuffy hall that makes everyone a sayur masin at the end of a day, being surrounded by people whose preferred language of communication isn't English ~ so many reasons to consider and be hesitant about. But I took the chance knowing that chances like these don't come often and also the chance to play with a Canon 600D XD


It started last Saturday (7th April). It went on for 2 weekends which resulted in 5 days. That is 5 days of being in a badminton hall from morning to night. Wouldn't say that I made friends for life (but who knows bout that for sure right.?), but I did get to know a few people who I will say hello to and maybe put in a lil' effort in asking how they're doing when I bump into them in campus and really mean what I say. My own "self fact" is proven to be true once again when it comes to conversations in a car. The president of the club sent me home after the event for 2 nights and in those times, I can say that I had one of the most fruitful conversations I ever had with any presidents. It was just those general questions like "how do you juggle studies and club stuffs" and to that president, it might just be a normal conversation, but there was a certain unexplained impact bout it. 


At the end of the 5th day, which was the end of the event, all of us went out for supper. A supper that involved 9 tables (1 short of the 10 I predicted). You know how they say "there is a difference between feeling lonely and being alone".? It is true. I was "alone", I knew no one close enough to talk with all night apart from E, but I didn't feel lonely. I was really happy to be on the sidelines, observing how a club that I have no single relation to conduct themselves. Truth is, if this was a CF supper and that was how I was feeling, I would without hesitation come home and call my friend and complain all I want at the balcony. It was really nice to see how things are done and how each of them are with each other in this club. Total eye opener, didn't know I was so cooped up before this. That 9 table supper reminded me of my "glory days" in Alpha and how seeing this happen with another club makes me wanna experience this with CF all over again. This was how things were and how things can be.! And I am surprised how God showed this to me, thru a bunch of people who is in a club I'm not even affiliated with, people I've only been around with for 5 days and who I don't even talk to because of some language barriers, people who I might not even meet again. Long story short, they are the last people I would expect to see such bond, tightness and crazy from, and I am not even part of their bond, tightness and crazy. Made me really see the damage of the things I have on my plate.

The 9 table supper...

My heart will continue to be with CF as much as I complain and defy some of the things they do and it is this heart that God has placed in me that makes me wanna see great things happening to His children. See, the changes I am trying to bring and make, it comes from a good place. And I wanna try to do this before I graduate, and that is I wanna play the cajon for at least one session...because learning and playing the keyboard and guitar is just so mainstream >.< hehehe...

Realizations...

I realized that...

Its better to feel like shit and a piece of crap because of your encounter with them that can be calculated with less than 5 fingers...cause at least its not as bad as feeling like same piece of shit when you encounter the same crowd for the 6354236494th time.

So yea, you terserempak them for a few times and they didn't treat you the way you would have expected and you labelled them and called them this and that...

Or you deal and face them for so many times and yet each time you come out feeling like shit. I complain much.? Cause my encounters were way more than yours, I'm at least "entitled" to the complaining that I do given the slaps I've gotten again and again.

You do the math here..Just suck it up la k.?

You Just Don't Know

I look at it, and I can't help but feel disgusted. Like really disgusted, with a capital D.! Why on earth do you do such stuff.??
I know what you are up to and now, it involves someone that I care so dearly for... 
To you, its harmless and to that someone I know, it might also be harmless. 
I am still just a third party observer in this situation, without any rights to say how you should conduct yourself and situations like these...


But that's someone that I care for, get it.? That person matters to me. Its taking a lot for me to not utter a single word to you bout this cause at the end, who am I in this situation to say anything.?


Just please, get your act together. It doesn't reflect well on you and trust me, this isn't what you want people to think of you as.

Said A Year Ago...

Finally went on Fb for today, and I saw a status a soon-to-be graduating senior of mine posted. The gist of it is living the final few weeks one has as a student to the fullest...


It kinda rang a bell. I remember I posted/said something so similar to that. It was my final semester as an Alpha and it was after one of the maddest and fun CG outings ever. I know how that feels, to know that your days here as a student is numbered and the hard part of letting go approaches nearer. 


I know, just trust me on this...


Another thing that I did kinda say before happened again, and its situations like these that makes me not want to take back what I said, even if it was mean and so so so unfiltered. One always say the most factual and unfiltered stuff when they feel like a piece of crap. I kept convincing myself "I shouldn't have to.." but only God knows if the first move should have came from me. Only You know...


Whatever it is, I guess its just one of those many days where my thoughts are random and I rant...