30 Pictures Now...

A Picture a Day - September 2011 has come to an end now. 

SO MUCH FUN.!!!! 

Definitely gonna do this again for next year :-)

Started out with this...
Told my CG leader I want to be a part of ROC

And ended with this..
Chopped off at least 5 inches of my hair

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Hopefully This is The Last of Beta_1

Then – One Republic’s Good Life

Now – Michael Buble’s Home

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Beta year’s first trimester has come to an end now with me just sitting for my last paper for this Final barely hours ago. Was it a good semester you may ask. I would say, give and take ~ ok ny la. Nothing much to really shout about. Undeniably, it has been a semester of meeting new people, adjusting to the environment and culture here and most definitely trying to embrace what this place and the people here can offer. It has been a tiring one as well...

Truth is, I know that this could be a much longer, close to never ending post if I were to tell you how things didn’t go as planned and how things turned out differently for me here. And by didn’t go as planned and turned out differently, I meant that in a not so positive way. I wasn’t negative from the very beginning though. You have no idea how positive I was at the beginning ~ so positive that it could probably cure cancer *haha..exaggeration*  Then things started to not turn out the way I expected it to and I realized some hard truths. Truths that are though painful to accept and realize, but I’m glad I realized it sooner than later. With those revelations, I could pretty much say I started to get tired. Tired here as in lazy-to-put-in-effort-and-respond-to-things kind of tired. Call me unwilling to try and put in an effort, but that’s cause you don’t have a single clue how hard I tried at the beginning. I also have this amazing thrill like never before to want to go home all the time and the feeling of wanting to run out of here every chance I got. Anyways, if any of you are curios and wanna know what happened, come ask me and I’ll tell you. I wouldn’t mind sharing. Definitely not going to do it here.

Then, because I was embracing my new found alone time, I kept myself busy with a few stuff. And this is the short list of things that I did to practically keep me sane...

- Talked on the phone as if there was no tomorrow and as if the phone charges were free

- Started following more blogs, give and take around 6 now

- Gave blogging a try, hence the birth of this blog and

- A Picture a Day - September 2011 ~ enjoyed doing these the most

And before I cabut for my much needed and awaited semester break, here are two pictures I wanna share…

Before Beta_1 started

As of now when Beta_1 has ended

Well, the closet did expand =P

~ I can’t wait to get home.!!!

~ Can’t wait to see the hand-me-downs that I’ve gotten that is just screaming to be touched and seen

~ Can’t wait to cook a real meal for myself even if it’s just frying eggs and experiment in the kitchen

~ Can’t wait to watch TV =P

~ Can’t wait to have hot water for showers

~ Can’t wait to eat my favourite char siew noodle from my favourite kopitiam

~ Can’t wait to have the house all to myself

~ Can’t wait to sing on top of my lungs without the fear of anyone hearing and seeing me

~ Can’t wait to do so much of things.!!!

Have a good break peeps and may you be recharged for the new semester =) That is what semester breaks are for...

Reporting at 2am...

Hello there, I've decided to write a post because...well just because actually. Nah, its most probably because I've not written anything anywhere for a while now, so yes, I wanna "get in touch" with writing again ~ before it gets rusty XD


Well, Finals are almost done. I've got 2 more papers to freedom. Gonna cabut from here on the day I finish my last paper itself. And September is also coming to an end, which means my little side project (which I extremely enjoyed) "A Picture a Day ~ Sept '11" will also come to an end. By the 30th of September, there would be a total of 30 pictures in that album :-) wooOtsss.!! So planning to do this again next year :-)


Other than that, been studying for Finals and also this - been blog hopping to check out what happened during NYFW =P This is strange considering I don't even know what season it is now and I've never followed any Fashion Weeks before. All the blogs that I've bookmarked and been following didn't talk much bout the shows that went on under the tent. Instead they talk more about their blogger events held in conjunction with Fashion Week. Trust me, these things that fashion bloggers get to do and the events that they get to go to, looks so FUN and EXCITING.!! I'm not gonna use the word awesome as it is so over-used these days, people use it to describe practically everything that its losing its meaning now ~ such a sad fact...


So, I guess that is all I have for now. Hope to write in again when Beta_1 Finals are officially done and history. Nites y'all =)Have a great day ahead...

How Nice To Feel This Way...

Feeling so at home right now, not just because I am at home, but its the people here, the place here...

*oh happiness..*

So nice to have this feeling again...

To climb up the stairs of my old hostel...

To compose one text and send it to a number of people as a lunch invitation...

To sit in the library and prepare for Finals...

To eat in FCM Cafe for lunch...

And come out smelling one kind >.<

To walk on the walkways and common areas where every student walks...

To sit in FOE lecture room and be in the company of great people...

*its CF with the Cyber family all over again.!!*

To see some faces which I've not seen for a very long time...

To go to SK for supper...

Happily returning back to my books now =)

Denial...

You know you are lonely even when you are surrounded by people with the most vibrant personality and what seals the deal here is when you make more phone calls than ever, calling the same few people and ranting about the same old things.I guess the face I put on, well its just ultimately a face I put on cause I think I cannot see myself walking around with a sour face >.< And it took me this long to realize it, to realize I've not been completely settled here, to realize that I've been pretending more than I thought I was =.=

It's quite miserable considering I keep telling myself that God placed me here for a purpose and I am okay (don't know what other words can I use =.=) with being here and walking in this path He set me on. Even in the midst of all this so called misery, I still know that God is good, He wont put me through things I couldn't handle and I must trust His plans for me. Though His presence can feel very distant at times, its undeniable that He is the ultimate companion for everyone.!! =) God works in ways we can never ever imagine.

Isaiah 41: 10 - So do not fear, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

As of now, though I still remain unmoved and unaffected (okay, not on all things cause I really am looking forward to ROC) by the things that are going on here, as gempak as they are, I of course hope that things will change soon. Imagine if this goes on for the next three years.??!! Talking to Esther made me realize that I've been comparing too much, and when one starts to compare, expectations will definitely follow suit. Like come on, how many times did the-place-that-shall-not-be-named-but-everyone-knows-its-the-place-I-keep-talking-about came out from my mouth.? Not to mention all the praises that I kept attributing them with.? I need cut my new family here some slacks too. So yeah, guess I have a lot (a whole lot.!) to work on. 

Wanna Hear It Again.?

The break I so looked forward to came and went. It was great while it lasted, and now that I am back here I really feel the urge to scream into someone's face =.= Yes, I am that unstable. Consider yourself warned.

*flash back to a week ago*

My break technically started even during committee planning for next semester's CF activities cause I know within a day more I would be back home. Anyways, what happened during the planning was all committee members were told to reflect back on what we have done and how things have been for one trimester. This got me to realize that the best day I've had ever since I moved here was Inter-CF Day, hands down =) I guess those present were not surprised to hear that I mentioned that in my sharing given I go on and on about it. This then got me to wonder how long does one actually take to adjust to new surroundings, new people etc, it's been a semester already. Will there come a time where I wont get all excited as I do now to go home.? Or maybe I look forward to coming back to campus and going home equally.? All in all it was a very fruitful meeting and though I couldn't stay until it was over, I know that God has great plans for CF in the upcoming semester, just like how He did for the past semesters. Looking forward to it and I hope everyone is too. And plus ROC is happening in the next semester.!!! woooOtssss =) =) To make things even sweeter, I got my second pair of Chucks.!! I am the proud owner of two pair of Chucks now XD

My time in Kajang is then filled with tons of meet ups. Super busy with meet ups. Oh and not forgetting the times where I changed my nail colour every two days =.= I literally had an outing (or two at times) almost everyday. It's surprising that my parents are even okay with it. I first met up with the very cool Cyber people ~ Vivian, Alvin, Deric, Stephen and Philip. They were in Cyber even though its break. And being the proud Kajang girl that I am, of course I brought them to my favourite kopitiam. Then I got a chance to meet up with the wonderful Miss Kaitlin Marian, twice I might add. The first time, I was so under-dressed but still great nevertheless. The second one, I got to meet up with Kalai and Daya too. Got to see Daya's new crib. So nice to be with them, exchanging grandmother stories. Hahahaha =D Then lastly, I got to meet YenPui. I've not seen this ekor for the longest. I didn't get a chance to see her before I left for Malacca, then I also didn't get to see her during the few times I came back. So great to get to meet everyone I met. I was able to meet up with everyone I wanted to meet up with. Awesome right.?

Pictures, to assist you in getting a clearer view of the much awaited break...

Committee planning =)

2nd one.!! 2nd one.!!! *jumps in joy*

Cyber people in the house yo.!!

Pastels =)

Daya dearie with her food...

I Love You, my sampat XD
and since when you got so yeng.? tights and shorts =)

*at present time*

Back in Malacca now. Gotta start gearing up for Finals now (trying to, at least). If not I can kiss those ka-ching goodbye and be welcomed home with never ending lectures of "what went wrong.??!!" or "have you forgotten what your aim is.??!". It won't happen, it wont happen, it wont happen. I command it to not happen.!!

HAPPY STUDYING EVERYONE.!!! 

A Pack of Baby Bears =)

Went to the mart near Ixora and saw packs of gummy bears at the counter. And I love gummy bears. They are so cute.!! Its amazing how small things like this brightens up my day.

my gummy bears =)

A strange and funny thing happened today. I went to the balcony, dragged the chair along 'cause I was calling a friend of mine. Then suddenly, I heard someone calling out my name a few times, and it was coming from the boys' hostel which is where my unit faces. And that voice sounded so familiar. Instead of scanning all the balconies that my unit is facing, I ran back into the house and sat on the couch instead XD


Much later after that, I went back to the balcony as I was on another phone call with my friend (yes, again). This time, no one shouted my name. Thank God. My time at the balcony is not something you wanna mess with. Ahahaha =D


I realized something ~ I am a rule breaker. I have that "inner rebellion" or that stubborn trait in me that makes me stand by what I say and what I believe in. And of course, sometimes society wouldn't just agree in everything that you stand firm on. Do I enjoy it exactly.? Maybe yes, maybe no. I go against rules not for the sake of going against it, to cause trouble or just because. I go against rules because I don't think that particular rule is necessary and it's completely irrelevant. I still think I am quite okay to work with, still flexible and am open to opinions and correction =P *self-praising much.?*


I'm still very unenthusiastic. Everything has been so flat and flat la. So what.? There is still excitement in all these flat-ness. Where is my excitement.!??! Other than that, 4 more days and I will be home.!!! Can't wait to get out and be home.

4 More Days...

Home...

wooOOttsss.!!!

I'm On The Right Track.

The number of phone calls I made to the people back home kind of escalated last weekend. My weekend technically start on Fridays as I don't have any class on that day. This ultimate loneliness hit it's ultimate worse on Friday itself. So, that spurred all the phone calls I made. At those moments also, though I have my assignments to keep me busy, I really couldn't wait for the midterm break to come. I just can't wait to go back and see all the faces that I know and love and get crazy with them. I was also really unenthusiastic about the stuff that is going on here ~ if there is even anything. This is unlikely 'cause I'm the kind that gets excited easily. Oh wells...

To those who got the calls, you know who you are. Just wanna say a big thank you for picking up my calls and listening to me rant the same thing over and over again. Hopefully, my parents would also be understanding when they see the phone bill. *please don't kill me*

Thankfully on Sunday, God granted me a good day. Woke up a little late but still managed to get ready for church. Then, I didn't have to walk to the bus stop alone, someone was there to accompany me =) The yellow school bus came and off all of us headed to CCC. After church, had McD for lunch *oh happiness*. It was this lunch that really made me feel not-so-lifeless. The combination of the yummy GCB and the conversations and laughters *awesome.!!* I was so happy that when I came back, I buzzed Esther on MSN and told her how happy I am, not even what made me that happy. 

Something that caught my attention ~ Ecclesiastes 5:4 - When you make a vow to God, do not delay in fulfilling it. He has no pleasure in fools; fulfill your vow.

*I know I've been breaking my promises ~ help me keep my promises*

*p.s - post was named after a line in the song I was listening to when I was writing this =)

I'm Not Feeling It...Yet, Maybe

What am I not feeling.?

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I remembered my very first time going for one ~ oh man, that was good. It was something I never regret, it is something I still look back to with a smile and ultimately, it brought us all together.

Then I thought history would repeat when I joined my next one ~ Oh, how wrong I was.

Maybe this is a result of having just expectations, don't even mention high expectations.

So yeah, what am I not feeling.? I think that is better left unsaid. Maybe I should be a lil' more patient and give it more time.

But if I can say it once, I can very surely say it again.

I'm not feeling it, I'm not feeling it..

I'M SO NOT FEELING IT.!!!

Hair Flips and Realizations...

I don't know what got into me, or what "provoked" me to do what I did. I just finished preparing for one of my midterm papers and I have some time to spare. I don't have a single clue where did this idea came from (probably my obsession with levitation pictures or anything that appears to float or in air =.=)  but I decided to go to the balcony and take pictures of my myself tossing, flipping and whipping my hair...

I was then further convinced and "encouraged" to go on with my plan as it was only 4.15pm and the sun was still shining brightly ~ natural light.!! It's bright enough and the camera works best with this kind of lighting =P

So no-life right.? Assignments due date's are drawing closer and I still have time for random-ness.

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On a more personal note, I just went for my CG's last Bible study. Last yo.!!! I was given the chance to lead worship for the very first time. First timer's fear and nervous-ness coupled with timing issues ~ it's all well. Very thankful that God made me take that leap of faith. 

Okay, back to "final CG Bible study". It then occurred to me that the semester is coming to an end soon with Finals and a few more assignments being in the way. Can't believe I would have spent one semester here in Malacca, transitioned from being the kid who goes back every weekend to only going back twice so far this semester. Seeing familiar Cyber faces for lunch, dinner, supper almost all the days I'm in campus to seeing and mingling with new faces. I'm not complaining but at the same time, "start all over again" isn't exactly a piece of cake.


Oh wells, that's me now :-)