53 Ornaments

Christmas Celebration is finally over and done with.! Yes Yes Yes =D

Looking at how it went there were definitely things I could have done more. I could have prepared more ornaments for decorations, more preparation for the photo booth and most importantly, I could have surrendered more to God than to rely on my strengths. Quite honestly, I saw this opportunity to plan the party as an outlet to dump all my creativity, party must haves and ideas (like the photo booth). This was the chance, only chance I will have to try out all the decorating tips and tutorials I googled. I saw this as a golden opportunity to see what is it like to make a photo booth, what was it like to hang doyleys from the ceiling etc and the guilt free part is that I get to try this all out for free. Yes, free. Well, I kinda went over budget still =.=

I ran up and down and tried so hard to make it look good so that people can have a good time, people can leave with pretty pictures of the night and also so that I can look and admire at pretty decos. The fact that I have a better and greater reason to celebrate and rejoice on this day didn't cross my mind as much as it should have.

Now that its done, of course I hope that the next person who is in charge of this wouldn't go though what I went through. I still have hopes of seeing a minimum of 80 ornaments dangling around and a nicer photo booth to be set up next. But at the bottom of it all, the planners must know the reason why they want to give so much and that they have such a great reason for the season that they are in. The tough lesson here is, in all that you do, put Him first. 

See what I meant when I said there could have been more stuff dangling down from the ceiling.? Could have, whats that word... "rain down more heavily" =D

Know.Remember.Embrace

You are one hell of a tough bitch.!

always know that, remember that and best of all, embrace it.

le Final Sunday

What went down for this Sunday, the last Sunday of 2012

Woke up late but still made it to church =P

During service, wrote a prayer for 2013, sealed it in an envelope and it will be mailed back to me in 3 months time

Went to the court for the last day of Novice Cup 2012 ~ was finishing already when I reached

Went for late lunch at IceRoom Cafe at Laksamana ~ *recommended*

Came back and study for IT Service Management midterm -.-

Now, am I the only one barking bout it.? Would you care to show me otherwise.?

Cause if you throw crap in my face again this time, I have little close to no plans in sugar coating.

And trust me when I say I will not sugar coat.

le Final Saturday

What went down for this Saturday, the final Saturday of 2012

Knowledge Auditing and Mapping midterm ~ not.enough.time

Nap and over-napped and went late to the court for Novice 2012

At Novice Cup 2012, umpiring duties after so long ~ knees and hands were shaking, "correction" a number of times

Dinner with Alvin Lim who is in Melaka for his birthday and the weekend

Googling, reading and completing Decision Support Systems quiz due on the 31st of Dec

A fruitful day indeed.

Calling it a day for good now.

le Final Friday

What went down for this Friday, the last Friday of 2012...

Decision Support Systems midterm in lecturer's office

CF post mortem of the week

Slept for 3 hours

Revised for Knowledge Auditing & Mapping midterm for tomorrow

Dinner and was called a retarded bitch in the face

Still revising for Knowledge Auditing & Mapping -.-

That is basically how today went.

A lil mind workout here ~ How do you like walking into a room of people, they give you their Hi's, you say Hi back. You sit down and its like you're not even in the room. *wahhh I feel damn awesome bout myself lor in situations like this* Such a rare breed, close to extinction I would say...

The problem is me, always been me, always will be me. Since when can it be others.? You know they are saint like, close to perfect. Of course the problem is me la. How dare you blame this on the saints? No investigation or Q&A's needed, can straight point finger. 

How It Is

There was this incident that I had to face earlier this week. There was no avoiding it. I had a "more serious than usual" sit down session with one of the closest people I met in my varsity life. Truth is, I was quite scared for it. I didn't know how I would be able to open up my eyes and bring myself to lie to this friend's face, just to save face. I didn't know what I should prepare, as I don't even know what questions will be flung to my face. So, in I went with all the false bravado and sat down confidently to be potentially "fried". The session didn't exactly come as a surprise. I would consider myself "warned". I shall not expose what went on as both parties agreed that whatever that is said will stay in that room and only between the both of us. But I indirectly realized something and this I will let slip ~ I close so many "one eye" because you are "family". I had been that bias in my daily conduct and the pathetic part is, you continue to abuse it and I allowed myself to be abused in such a way again and again. *don't I ever learn..* I'm still letting this to sink real deep in and understand why I did that.

While I was at the "warned" stage, one friend told me this ~ It seems that you are in "tai wok" with both sides. My reply to that was, "I think I would wanna un-"tai wok" myself at that rather than at this, cause at this, whatever I do or don't do, I feel I'm in "tai wok", so yea..". Then an encounter that had I-won't-take-back-what-I-said written all over it happened. More reason to devote time and effort at that than this. 

*in my dictionary, probably dictionaries of many as well, tai-wok is the Cantonese equivalent to "deep shit" in English.

I'll Take What Is Given To Me

The 2012 version to this. No pictures though =P
The previous one, I was just sitting in the crowd, plain excited for the day. 

The current one, I'm the one that's in charge of making it happen, glory and thanks goes to Him first and foremost of course.

There was this one day trip to Cyberjaya over the weekend which I had the privilege to organize with my ex-CF. I enjoyed the day of course and now that the trip has come to an end, I can also say that I did enjoy the planning as well.

Its tough to say that you "enjoy" telling people "16 people has signed up" 2 days before the event, even more so when your expected target was 40 people and "publicity" has been on for 2 weeks. Its down right embarrassing to tell people indirectly how something you're in charge of is epic-ly failing. It was painful when some said "but your bus is for 40 people right". Truth is still truth even if its "16 people 2 days before the event". Sitting in a meeting a day(less than 24 hours before departure) before the event and hearing suggestions was ridiculous. Suggestions given weren't that ridiculous, the ridiculous was hearing all of it at that kind of time ~ when there is no more time to implement it and when it is already so late. If only all this came earlier. I was able to put up a nice presentable face still after some self psycho-ing and also some very long, tear filled, angry rambling phone calls with a friend from home. I am not afraid to admit(well here at least) this cause I was in that state. Through some last minute string pulling of certain people, the number got nicer (a 27 btw). 

I was obviously happy and thankful for this, then I had another thing to worry ~ awkward silences. Given my rep, I am not so sure if I am the person to break awkward silences. I was worried sick for this. But when all of us arrived and were put in the same room, people just naturally mingled *pheww*. Not sure if it could have been more but in my eyes, cukup la...I was really happy to meet and talk to some of the new faces from Cyber. 

I was hands off once we arrived in Cyber mainly cause the activities are taken care of by the Cyber CF. Station games were fun. Never thought of doing a human tetris for a charade-like challenge and that putting an angel hair pasta thru a "pasta with a hole" would be so tough =D The walk in the garden was an adventurous one. Me, Esther, Deric and Edward got lost. We walked till there was no more proper path to walk on. We still managed to find our way out on our own, while taking some jump shots and sightseeing at the lake. Dinner was a bit messy for me. We had to split up cause there were many options of where to eat.

Through the mini conversations I had with a few people after the trip, the location that we chose for the wrap up and sharing was surprisingly good. It was unexpected for many. We did it at one of Putrajaya's many colourful-ly lighted bridges. Many were in "those who don't take photos took out their phones to do so" awe of it. Ahahaha =D I was glad that the location turned out good considering we organizers decided on it during dinner time. I think it was this bridge that me and Vivian did a "photoshoot" XD 

In the end, I was glad that the trip turned out the way it did. It could have turned out worse or even better, but I'll take whatever that's given to me. Planning this I got to see how priorities differ among us(there is no good or bad to this). What I view as of utmost importance could just be something so small to someone else and vice versa. I saw how I cannot force someone into something. I love being able to come back and stuff like walking around FOE Foyer can already make me jump in happiness. People who has left would understand. Certain places has sentimental value and this is one of the many. *thankful* 

Please Save It

So, what does one do when numbers for something(could be your weight, height, attendance, bank account balance etc) is not at a desired state.? You have done your part and there is nothing left to do, on your part at least. You psycho, brainwash and most importantly, you beg God to help you see that the number you got is a pretty miraculous number. You ingat senang nak dapat atau sampai nombor tu.?! 

And to those who see the obvious gap, please. I saw the gap way before you did, and whats worse is that in my eyes, that huge ass gap has more behind it. For your sake and mine as well, just save it. 

*end of rambling*

Things I Miss #2

Other than being my second "Things I Miss" post, this is also the song I wanted to share with fellow CF-ers during Rhythms of My Life. But upon seeing the list of songs of those who signed up, I chickened out, deciding I better not embarrass myself and worried if this song selection would be misinterpreted.

Lyrics wise it doesn't have any significance to me, its the whole song and what a song can do that makes it matter so much. We all know how a song can miraculously bring us back to the time we first heard it or maybe when it was looping in your playlist. This was my life's "soundtrack" back when I was in my last semester of Foundation year. It was then I had the time of my life being a new believer and enjoying the ultimate student life. It is also during this time that I learnt how and why we have to run the extra mile for our family of believers. And to me, running the extra mile is one way we encourage one another in our journey with God. And every single time I listen to this song or when this song is played, not just am I reminded of the times I sing this for fun in the car, I remember the time when there was just so much "energy" to do it all. I am reminded of the kindness that people have shown me and how one simple act of kindness can go a very long way.

I am pretty sure that all of us have a song somewhere in us that reminds us of a certain time, good or bad. And this one song, could be the most random of songs. 

And that would probably be my story.

So what do I miss actually, since this is after all a "things I miss" post. Long story short,I miss the time, the whole time when this was my "soundtrack"...

Effort and A Space in Here

I saved this photo from Tumblr when I first saw it almost 2 years ago, was more into the pretty calligraphy than what the quote meant. Of course, even then when I read it, it made perfect sense just that what was written was far from my worries. I still trust that they wanna stay, and the explanation I always give myself is "people can be really unconscious of all these at times".


Undeniably I have been pretty MIA this semester and to give myself a little credit(is that even the right word.??!?!), I have been more busy than ever. Previous semester was my best so far, I was lunch planner etc, I was a social butterfly. But this semester, I just didn't have the time to text 5 - 6 names for every lunch or dinner that there is. I go out and run errands with whoever that is conveniently with me at the time things occur. With that said, my "encounters" with certain people just never happened for this semester if not less. Guess I should just force myself to find time. FIND. TIME. I know I meant every word when I let all my guard down and said I will mend broken relationships, but you also know right that these things takes two hands to clap.? Probably with this I can save myself some heartache every time I see those "oh shit, we forgot bout her" look when we run into each other. 

*end of rambling*