2 Months and 1 Day

Today marks 2 months and a day I am into my job. I won't say I am deeply in love with my job neither do I hate it completely. Anyhows, I will still give myself a pat in the back for coming this far. This job pays for my splurges at Zalora and Dorothy Perkins so, can't really whine much haha. 

Being new, I do a lot observing as I don't have a posse to bitch with lol. Some things I just wish I didn't have to see nor hear of it, but you know people talk. They Talk! And being neither blind nor deaf, I can't avoid not knowing of it. With that said, I give myself 2 more pats in the back for emotionally and mentally shutting out chatters that are, for the lack of a better word - bullshit. Sure sure, everyone has their opinion as to whose works are sloppy, who is not punctual and etc, but the universal theory of benefit of the doubt tells me that people clock in everyday to give their best and make an honest living. Question yourself this, who actually seeks to be escalated for not performing?Personally, in my own words that would be ~ I want to be deserving of my pay. And to be deserving of my pay, I do my best at my job. I sound so rainbow and lollipops don't I? 

Aside to being new, I am also the youngest in the team that I am working in. The most senior being a baby boomer and the youngest, me, being a dang proud Gen-Y. My baby boomer colleague was questioning bout how Gen-Ys function, and errmm, it wasn't in such a positive light. I remember just sitting at my desk and continuing with my job as if they weren't talking about me or people of my generation, my peers. Reading back Oprah's Harvard commencement speech really brought so much light to the episode that I dealt with.

"You will find true success and happiness if you have only one goal, there really is only one, and that is this: to fulfill the highest most truthful expression of yourself as a human being. You want to max out your humanity by using your energy to lift yourself up, your family and the people around you". 

See, I aim to best the person I can, put my best foot forward all the time cause only so I lift others up and be of service to the people around me. In addition to achieving the most truthful and honest expression of myself, for myself, I hope that that too reflects well on my peers.

I would say the answer to that question is pretty much answered above. I walk into interviews or into my job daily, being mindful of what prospective employers/superiors and mentors want to see and mambo jumbo that with my personality and quirks, in the hopes that you, my prospective employers/superiors and mentors, can see that generations can gel. There is no Gen-Y without Gen-X and no Gen-X without baby boomers.
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And what did I just blabber up there. From my job that pays for my splurges, Oprah's speech to generations-can-gel. No wonder I can't write anymore. But for what's worth, you do get my point right?

Bridge Over Troubled Water

Hola everyone who is reading this. Alot has happened this past few months that I wasn't here. The most major one being I'm officially a graduate. I have a degree to my name =) And this post title's name is derived from my Youtubing of this song the past two days =D

Just a short update on what I've been up to this week or lately. Of course, with the completion of my studies comes the obligation and responsibility to look for a job. A JOB.!! Set up my profile on Jobstreet for a week now and no one has called me. I don't know bout you but I find that quite tarnishing to my confidence. 

I mean, I've seen myself always, without fail, as a career oriented person as much as I do not have the academic excellence to boot. Ask me where do I see myself 10, 15 years from now and I will tell you ~ working, being good at my job and getting paid well, financially stable, travelling or something along those lines. It has never been "ohh settling down, having kids, a family...". Never. Almost like as if work is all I have in mind. But with this job hunting drought (???), it made me really see the dent in my academic results and the older my JS account gets, the more elusive it is to score a job in a nice, well known company. A company I foresee myself working in for a long time. Dang, I shouldn't jinx it like that, what a theory that was. But regarding the results part, that one is one slap of reality, to the extent that I feel I wouldn't mind going through university just to properly sit down and study and be a nerd. Not for those mushy life changing experiences bull haha. 

On another angle also, I feel it is probably God's way of telling me to direct some of my focus, time, resources etc to ministry also and not just work and career alone. Leaving university, I never once thought where I would wanna serve in or stuff like that. Dang,I didn't even sort out any arrangements for a church to attend once I move back home, what more where-next-can-I-serve. As of now, the church-to-attend part has been sorted out, thank God for Deric haha. 

This job hunting thing is ughhh. I've noticed job advertisement disclaimers stating it takes an average of 2 weeks to process an application. If that's the case, I must have been very very very the impatient. All I know for now is that I will need God to open some corporate doors for me. Am pretty stoked to attend a new church this weekend. The new faces, the culture. Being in a place where no one knows you is quite therapeutic at times for me, so I guess I'm probably looking forward to that a bit. Naturally also, being in a new place means having a level of enthusiasm that is probably subconscious, so that is something positive that I kinda can have fun with.

Lastly, before I go, I wanna share the song that this post is named after. At least the version of Bridge Over Troubled Water that I really enjoyed. Why don't people make music like this nowadays.?? McKnight's belt of "I will ease your mind" at 4:20 is to die for. My, musically non technical verdict je la hahah... Toodles happy readers.!! =) =)

Bridge Over Troubled Water ~ Josh Groban & Brian McKnight (cover)

Substance

Everyone is a person of substance, until the person himself/herself proves and behaves otherwise. I would say that there is no need for me to be buddies with someone to classify him or her as substance, one should be given that label from the beginning. I think that's the benefit of the doubt. But once actions or words prove otherwise, you've got to accept that your misconduct is what you will need to live with. 

I rest my case.

Keeping up with MeiTheng

I've been watching so much of Keeping Up With the Kardashians and any shows that has something to do with the Kardashians. Yeap, including Kourtney&Kim Take NY and Khloe&Lamar. Such guilty pleasures. And also the go to post title as I am completely blank now. While we are at the topic of TV series, I've also caught up with the 5th season of The Good Wife ~ goshh Alicia Florrick's brain is so sexy!

Finals of Delta2 and Results
So much has happened since I last posted, it was at a time when preparations for Finals has not even start. Now, Finals are long gone, news of Taylor Swift's Red Tour coming to Malaysia broke, #Sochi2014 started and ended, Finals results are even out and I am already on the final week of my semester break. Passed everything from previous semester *hoorrrayy* with slight increase in my GPA, though my GPA was never to die for to begin with. With me passing every subject I took last semester, that meant I can go into my final semester on time and that leads to me having a good and high chance of graduating on time too! You tell me why I no happy.??? Hahahaha....

Taylor Swift Red Tour
I wanted to go for the Red Tour so badly, so so so mega extremely badly. I was ready to spend my ang pao on getting the tickets too, but sadly I had no one who can confirm if they could go since it's going to be in June, a long period of time to go. The other cray crap part is ~ TICKETS SOLD OUT WITHIN TWO HOURS.!!!! Miss Swift sure has a big following here =D

#Sochi2014 (I had to do the hashtag thing here haha)
Now now, I get to what I might say as the biggest chunk of this post - the 2014 Sochi Winter Olympics!!!! I started watching the Winter Games back in 2006, when I was in Form2 *gahhhh it has been that long eh.??* and I've been following ever since. I remembered how I told my dad to not leave(he was sending me to school btw) because there was ladies' figure skating going on on TV. I saw Sasha Cohen's silver medal performance, cheered and celebrated when Irina Slutskaya fell hahaha (cause I wanted Sasha to win) and witnessed history when a Japanese won gold in this event. I was okay btw, with Arakawa winning, cause speaking as someone-watching-the-sport-for-the-first-time-hence-I-know-nothing, I felt Arakawa's joy, freedom and her authenticity towards her craft. Okok, that was the history of how I started watching the Winter Olympics.

Back to #Sochi2014, of course I rooted for Yuna Kim to win a back to back gold medal, many did in fact. As all would've known by now, she didn't, she skated away with a silver instead. I also rooted for Gracie Gold to medal because I am a #teamusa #ftw kind of a girl. Nahh, I support TeamUSA because of Michelle Kwan (inspiring, so inspiring, the epitome of an American dream) and also how USA dominates the sports that they are in and the honour displayed by their athletes for being part of TeamUSA . I definitely hope and want to see Gold again in PyeongChang 2018, I might even consider making a trip there hahaha...  Davis and White winning ice dancing gold - happiest news ever at this Olympics for me *Go Meryl and Charlie!!!!*. I watch ice dancing because of the Shibutanis, super adorable and talented siblings. Maia has tons of swag yo! I hope the siblings will continue to improve and be household names of their sport and craft and also so that I have nice ice dancing routines to watch lol..

And through this Games, I discovered another event that I will be following - short track speed skating. I saw Apolo Ohno 500m gold medal win at the 2006 Games, but I never followed up with the sport anymore because of my immense interest and adoration towards figure skating. Sochi2014 rolled around, I got interested in short track speed skating again. I do not know how low speed skaters "lean" towards the ice when they are at the curve. Mind boggling hence super interesting. Another reason - JR Celski!! Here's a picture I got from Google and I'll let that do the explaining hehe...

That's what I call a million dollar smile!

But I insist, I still watch the Games for its sporting elements and not just for eye candy kays.? Eye candies are just teeny tiny added bonus...

That's pretty much it for me now, the semester break has been stagnant but I like it because I know the next break I will have will be occupied with job hunting. It sound weird to even say that ~ job hunting. Anyhows, thanks for reading and hoped you gain a thing or two =)

Welcome to Shit Factory

This place is twisted and dirty. Like real dirteyyh! If you come here without much of self confidence, personal integrity and personal conviction, this place would high chance do permanent damage to you. Thankfully, its been more of a preparation of the real shit factory ~ the real working world, where all people chase after is wealth and fame by kissing asses. 

Glad to say that, I've been to where I am today, without kissing asses. Kissing asses are for losers. Of course, my refusal to kiss ass hasn't made me favourite around here nor has it garnered me mainstream success and recognition. If that's a price I pay to have my integrity intact, then that's a pretty cheap price that I would be more than willing to pay. 

Just so you know, when I said its "yours", it really was yours. That huge thing is yours, ain't mine. Honesty came right to you directly when you asked me. Clearly, you were not expecting truth when you asked. Posting a status on Fb and calling me rude ain't gonna make you un-own that piece of thing. News flash, little miss rude here unclogged your piece of thing in the toilet. Why don't you go bitch bout that with your clique of sisters?

#shitfactory #yolo

*clicks Publish*

Contentment

Went for this semester's final CG bible study yesterday night. Wasn't planning to go at first given I have one individual's whose submission is due the next day and I'm far from halfway through. No worries, my assignment is done now. Had to re-do it twice in fact cause I got stuck the first time round. So worried as it was in the wee hours and none of my classmates would be awake, but thankfully I got through and finished it all at around 4am plus.

After that, I tossed and turned and it was surprisingly hard to fall asleep. Had been thinking of why am I placed here in Malacca, awful lot this past two weeks or so. And here I thought, I have moved past this topic longggggg agooo. Apparently not! I cannot exactly put a finger on as to why I am here or what am I even doing here. I started reflected back on the past 2 years when I made my move here, all hopeful for a great change, one I had no clue of. I'm hanging out less and less with CF-ers as a mass (not that I get asked that often too) and I've realized that after my internship, I have almost quite suddenly stop fancying going for CF and CG for that matter.  So, its not just there is nothing on my social calender but it also seems like I am choosing not to have anything scribbled on my social calender. Oh what has happened to me??

Back to the topic, the title of this post - Contentment. At the end of CG yesterday, we were asked to choose one word, on how we want this year to be. I took some time to think of it and then I decided its going to be a year of contentment for me. I'm coming to the final lap of my tertiary education this May, which leaves me to around 4 more months here. For my final few months here, I do not want it to be a time where I try even harder to make memories (sound a tad bit cruel no?). The reason I said that is because I wanna let the chips fall where they want, instead of me placing them around. I have come to the reasoning that there is a social hierarchy everywhere, yeap even in a holy place. With that social hierarchy, someone will need to play the Queen B and someone will need to be the underrated ones. People will just need to fill up the hierarchy!

The reason I chose contentment is because ~ whatever my placement/position is in that hierarchy, that will be my placement. I do not want the final few months I have as a student to be spent feeling as if I am entitled to something more and also spent trying and working even harder to move up that hierachy. If I still have a couple of more years to go, maybe. But now, what 4 months of "damage control" can I do, to a society where certain cling to the spot on the hierachy. Yeap, I'm pretty hands off now.